for my darling

I am tired of being someone who always succumb.

You really do not understand what I feel.

Yield, yield, and yield.

Understood, understood, and understand.

Did you never feel the pangs of me?

I just want to give the best to you

Then.... am I wrong have a little hope that you care about me?

helooo ... I am your boyfriend

I am a loyal and there when you're sad

I just want you to reduce your ego that too much

Maybe for now you do not realize how important I am to you

but, I'm sure you'll you can not afford to lose me

just be yourself even no body

I feel sorry for my ex-lover who dizzy with her appearance. Understandably, she wanted a date with her new boyfriend at saturday night. She felt inferior when the street with her boyfriend that he's just looked so different with her. Until tired I accompanied her to pick some clothes in distro clothing.

Luckily I did not like her a dizzying performance. I just like being cool looking. Because I like the simplicity and show what it is. So I feel comfortable with myself, it's up to other people like it or not. After all, love is not just appearance .. but also our ability to accept our partner as it is, without us trying to be someone else to look perfect in the eyes of our partners.

I am proud and happy to be myself

loving you is hurting me

i realize ...maybe this is my destiny...
destiny to be left from someone that i love
no one want love me just like i do tenderly
the truth is loving someone is wonderful and also hurt me

so painful after realize that..
hope that exist before but now just empty
yeah..maybe this is a result what i did to make u disappointed
should i die to fix ur disappointed?

i thought about u in the morning, day and night
when i remember for the first time we met
smile that never stop to appear on my face
after so long time we know each other
finally there's opportunity to meet u
it was so wonderful

and even...i told to my best friends
about how lucky and happy i am to find love
that's u

but now
after what we passed together
you destroyed all easily

now i don't know what should to do
my heart, love, life have broken into pieces

Indonesian version:
aq sadar ..mungkin ini memang takdirku
takdir untuk ditinggalkan orang yang aq cinta
tak satu pun yang mencintaiku seperti aq mencintai dengan tulus
kenyataannnya yaitu mencintai indah sekaligus menyakitkan

sungguh menyakitkan setelah menyadari itu
harapan yang dulu pernah ada sekarang hanyalah hampa
yeah..mungkin ini adalah balasan setelah aq membuatmu kecewa
haruskah aq mati tuk mengobati kecewamu

aq memikirkanmu di pagi hari, siang, dan malam
ketika aq mengingat saat pertama kali kita bertemu
senyum takkan pernah berhenti muncul di wajahku
setelah lama kita saling mengenal
akhirnya ada kesempatan tuk bertemu denganmu
itu begitu indah

dan bahkan..aq menceritakan pada sahabat
tentang betapa bahagia dan beruntungnya aq menemukan cinta
yaitu kamu

tapi sekarang
setelah apa yang kita lalui bersama
kau hancurkan semua ini dengan mudah

sekarang aq tak tahu harus bagaimana
hatiku, cintaku, hidupku telah hancur berkeping-keping

Love is really confusing with all its complexity.

i don't know what should to decide...

setiap kali gw denger suaranya....slalu aja bikin gw tenang..

makanya gw slalu nunggu waktu yang tepat tuk nelp dy atau nunggu telp dari dy

hmmm bingung gw nulis apa yg ada di otak gw n hati gw ternyata ga semudah yg gw kira...

huh dari mana yah gw harus mulai..trlalu bnyak hal yg mau gw tulis sampe2 gw bingung...ngung ngung.......

well seharian ni gw cuma tunggu dy online di ym atau nimbuz, but gw dah tunggu smp malem eh dy ga ol juga. 

-my phone was vibert-

senengnya dy nelp...

semua rasa gundah gw langsung sirna

yang ada hanyalah bahagia

firstly we were talking for simple thing and it goes to be serious

gw tanya sama dy....

will it be survive?

dy jawab.... why do u ask me like that?

i dunno ... it just my intuition to ask this question

then... dy jwb... let it flow... 

fine...

i just know that...there's something doubt di hatinya dy..

i know...stiap hubungan pasti ada resikonya

n gw bakal siap nerima itu n minimalize its risks

at least i wanna say thanx to God that...to give me this love

i'm so happy.........

hmmmm

what should i write to show how happy i am now.......

and maybe this word describes what i'm feelin' now...

yes.. someone loves me...

i'm just a simple guy that can't write to describe how happy i am

i'm feelin like flying

flying to the sky

feel the wind blows

hope this feelin won't go soon